Serenity Underneath
We try to live each moment with serenity, joy and gratitude.
One night as I was walking my dog, feeling unloved by my wife, sorry for myself and inadequate, an idea hit me: Perhaps serenity is not something to be attained but is already here. Perhaps the muddy waters in my life are my own creation, and underneath all that roiling is the bedrock of serenity, unchanged and unmoving.
I realized that I was afraid to let go of the thrill, the grasping and the victim/star status and just be a guy with countless blessings walking a dog. I feared that underneath it all, there might be
nothing. I decided to reach beyond these fears and trust that only the deep peace of serenity awaited me. I went for it - I chose to still the waters. And there it was. It only lasted for a few minutes, but it was powerful and true. I felt the possibility of new life.
I surrender to my Higher Power, allowing myself to drop into serenity.
